Keep Breathing

I just feel like writing my thoughts and feelings at this moment.. so really the truth is in my blogging displays... i try to hard. I try to be cool like everyone else... but let's face it i'm not that cool at blogging but i'll just keep telling myself I am. sad songs... I love listening to sad songs because it makes me cry and sometimes when you cry you feel better about what has been bothering you for a long time. I am sick of trying to impress so now I am just going to be me. I am writing a lot of jibberish that will practically only make sense to myself but it just makes me feel better! Grey's anatomy starts this month and I look forward to it! That show creates the drama we all don't want to have in our lives for me. I can sit and watch the action roll. It's just like an action movie... you never know what is going to happen next. okay I feel a lot better now. I can breathe again.. well kinda because right now I feel like I have a lot shooting at me. Work, School, finding free time and relaxing. I know that doesn't sound too difficult but in my situation I feel like it is difficult and I am screaming inside of not knowing where to start and not knowing how close it is to the end. Most of my friens are almost done with school and yes it is true I am still working on my associates degree. In my dream I would want nothing more than to become a high school Health teacher.. but that road seems so far far away and out of reach. I have never been a great student or a horrible student I am stuck in the middle. I would love to finish something.. because I didn't finish hair school and I so regret that. It is odd because I can remember the most craziest things but not remember the important things I learn in school. So hopefully I can breathe again fully and achieve my dream of becoming a high school health teacher and help those students who are stuck in the middle like me!